(2004-12-02) Gotta get organized, man!

Have you ever had someone asking you "where you will be i five or ten years" ? When I was younger I had my priorities clear to me. No problemos I knew exactly where I was heading and where I'd be at 25 or 30. Back then I joined every organisation I could find and became the chief editor for the school's newspaper, did some work for the local community radio, became chairmember for some of the student organisations. I eventually got a "student of the year"-like nomination from my school despite the fact my grades were bland. Life was good.

That was ten years ago. I'm supposed to have found my way now eagerly working my way through life. If it only was that simple. The real story is that I'm drifting without an engine or a rudder. My workcareer is completely stale. I even went backwards at a time. My social life is nearly non-existant. I'm holding on to my job in times of downsizing and offshoring with a growing feeling of uneasiness. It's in times like this one need to find a goal and a purpose in life. This is a fight I've been fighting for the last couple of years.

Many of the things I do on my spare time have gone from "funny things to do" to "Thing that must be done because they must be done". Everyday when I get home from work I must fight the urge to just goto bed and sleep because there's nothing else to do. Nothing is funny any longer and it's been that way for years now. I think what I must write down as my new years vows should be:

- To find a purpose in life.
- To find new projects to participate in
- To find the motivation to push through.
- To complete all that I started.
- To end all things that nolonger enriches me.

Yeah, that sounds about right.

Tags: Personal notes
Posted: 2010-06-17 by Erik Zalitis
Changed: 2010-06-17 by Erik Zalitis

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